she’s perfect —— so perfect —– too perfect, with the beginnings of izzie’s sunlight locks crowning her head and his own eyes reflecting his when he’s near. so many parents say that their child is a miracle! ; but theirs really & truly is. she is something he never thought he’d have with izzie: a family, a life outside of her five percent survival rate. everything is finally going for him, and the mere possibility that he could screw his daughter up (like jimmy screwed him up) suddenly SUFFOCATES him. it’s why he hasn’t held his baby in the three days she’s been alive. it’s why when charlotte’s cries echo down the hall of their house for the second night in a row, alex feigns unconsciousness.